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09:08 pm
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IM HOME
HEY PEOPLE IM HOME! I had the best vacation but im glad yo be home, i missed it here but i miss it there cuz it was warm. i miss the warm. just ask if you wanna hear about my trip cuz yeah im not typing it all. ummm....SYRACUSE IS FANTASTIC! believe me we have more to do here then you think! I MISS YOU ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3333333333333
Current Mood:  content
Current Music: where'd you go
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10:36 am
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hell no i wont go!
Sprin Break. I've waited so long and now I'm in the middle of it. Don't make me go back to school. I've had a taste of summer and now I can't imagine having to go back. The warm days, no school, do whatever I want, sleep in. I'm sure no one else wants to go back either. June could never come soon enough.
SMIMP...FOREVER
Current Location: Louisiana
Current Mood: satisfied
Current Music: Story Of A Girl
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05:51 pm
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last 4 days
The last time I updated about there being only 4 days left...Taylor was coming here. Now it's 4 days intul I go there. What a change...and what a long time ago that was. I could hardly contain myself then. And today I'm not all that excited. I'm not 100% sure why but I think it has to do with the picture of him and his gf he sent me the other day. I just made me realize that she is really there, I can't pretend she doesn't exist, and I'm worried that things won't go how I want them to. People have been warning me about that for a long time, and I'm just now realizing they are right. I mean, maybe things will be just fine. But what if they're not? All I can do is hope for the best I guess.
I hate school. It makes me feel so worthless, not being able to acheive the grades I used to. I don't see any point in society. Working all our lives just to pay for a funeral and taxes when we die. Not experiencing anything like the world we live in or being kind to everyone. Personally, I think we are an awful race and I don't know why God would ever put us here. But hey, that's just me.
Comment Please:)
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Current Mood:  bouncy
Current Music: Life Is A Highway
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08:48 pm
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EIGHT DAYS
8 Days guys...eight days. Last time I posted something like this I was counting down till Taylor came here. Now I'm counting down until I go there. It's going to be amazing, I know that, but I'm also scared. I don't know exactly what to expect. I miss him so much and I've waited so long for Spring Break to come. Now it's almost here, I'm leaving next friday. I can't believe it. Grounded till Sunday then detention mon-thurs. next week. if you wanna know why ask me in person some time, it's too long of a story. 8 days is the only thing keeping me going right now. I'm tired of school...make it die. I'm tired of a lot of people too. They just...annoy me. I have my friends, I love my friends, all of you. You're amazing. But anyways....8 days....can't believe it
Current Mood:  tired
Current Music: Two Timing Touch And Broken Bones
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08:04 pm
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SHIT.
SHIT. That about covers it. It says how I feel, and it explains what's going on. Things just cant go right for my family can it? We can't just be normal and happy, well...as normal as any family can be that is. Sure everyone has their problems...but this is beyond rediculouse. How about we all just stop talking to each other...I think that might work better then pretend.
I hate pretend.
Current Mood:  worried
Current Music: Every Time We Touch
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09:50 pm
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I don't even care anymore!!!!!
You know what? Nothing matters. Nothing at all. I don't give a shit about anyone who doesn't give a shit about me. You know who that is? That would be some of my friends that you would least expect. YES THAT'S RIGHT! And you know what? I'm tried of my mom putting everything on me. All of her fucking problems and blaming me for shit I have nothing to do with. You know what else, I'm tired of having bad timeing. I have bad timeing with anything you can think of, I garentee it. I get unmotivated when I have the most work to do. I'm too fucking shy to say something when I should, I DO ONE THING I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO BE DOING EVEN THOUGH ITS NOT THE END OF THE WORLD FOR TWO SECONDS and I get caught and yelled and told "WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO MY HEATHER?! YOU JUST LIKE TO PISS ME OFF DON'T YOU!" Yup, that's it mom, I like to piss you off for no good reason. My favorite time to do it is when I'm having the worst day and I think I just want to die. Yup, that's when I like to make you mad and have you yell it me, it's the icing on my cake. I DONT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT ANYONE BECAUSE NO ONE ELSE DOES! Maybe you think you care, but really, you don't. I can't even tell anyone what's wrong. You're thinking "yes you can, just say it!" well guess what, I can't because I've tried so many times that I'm fed up with it all. You know I can't think of one person you really seems to care. Not one. So if you're reading this and you're thinking, "Oh, well I MUST be the exception." Guess what babe, YOU'RE NOT! And I can garentee you that. So the next time you ask me for something or do something for you, I'm going to tell you no. And you're going to yell or be upset, I'm going to feel guilty and then I'm going to remind myself "Heather, they wouldn't do it for you, why should you do it for them?" So there you have it people. I've reached the end of my line. Everyone has pushed me to and far past my limits that I'm done. Sorry if I'm a tad bitchy now and again, but deal with it, because I'm done dealing with everyone.
Current Mood:  pissed off
Current Music: Breathe
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11:00 pm
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:'(
today was Mrs. B's funneral. I didn't want to go because I didn't think I could handle it. And I was right. Today was very hard. We drove to Canajoharie for the service, my mom, grandfather and uncle. It was so nice, but so hard. I'll never forget her and the summer's will be different. I will miss birthday cards from her. She never forgot anyone. It made me stop and think about what it's going to be like when my great aunts and uncles go. They are like grandparents to me. And that is such a big thing because sometimes I don't feel like I have any real grandparents. Grandma and Papa are gone, grandpa is ever so distant because of deenie, and nana...she's nana, not very affectionate. What's it going to be like? The summer's are going to be awefull when they are gone. I can't imagine what will happen. I don't want to. But I can't help but think about it. They are getting so old. And I love them. So much. Kendra came down eariler to make sure I was okay, but I was fine. As soon as she left tho I just cried. I cried and cried and cried. I hate change and I can't stand things to be different.
Current Mood:  melancholy
Current Music: High And Dry
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12:45 pm
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blah
last night kendra slept over and as usual we had a blast. then i woke up to the phone ringing to find out that another close family friend had died at 8am...that sucked. just thought id mention it. bye.
Current Mood:  blah
Current Music: Let it all out
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05:25 pm
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OMG!!!!!
OMG ITS LIKE MARCH OUTSIDE!!!!!! or it was earlier ne ways. I LOVED IT!!!! i came home and opened all the windows and the sun came in, and it SMELLED like spring! I can't wait for it to be April...i want it NOW. I wouldn't mind to terribly if we didnt see ne more snow around here until december. my dad would...but oh well. summer is the best. I rode home today with windows open and i had a tank top on and no coat and i was perfectly fine! I LOVE THIS!!!!!! the warm weather is so random...and so great!!!!!!! ok im done. YAY!
Current Mood:  excited
Current Music: Better Life
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12:00 pm
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BEST NEW YEARS WEEKEND EVER!
Saturday - New Years Eve 05:
I babysat and that was boring, but when I finally got to Kendra's for the New Years party, everyone was there. Me, Kory, Kendra, Molly, Maura, Lauren, Ellen, Ranjana, Henry, Lindsey, Laura, Kelly, Oddis, Jason, and Colby. What a group. I LOVE THEM ALL! We had a dance CD in and did all the line dances like Cotton Eyed Joe, and the Macarena...it was a blast. Then we played encore...the best game ever! Me Lindsey and Kendra went to my house and got decked out in glow in the drak jewlery just before midnight and then at midnight we screamed the loudest I've ever heard, poped popers, used noise makers, and took a ton of pictures. I can't think of a better way to bring in the new year. A few of us had a dance party in the upstairs hall and climbed up the walls, it was sooo fun!!! Kellen Ranjana and Henry went to Ellens, Kelly went home, the rest of us spent the night. Around 2am Kory and I walked Oddis, Jason, and Colby down to my house. We got them all settled in the living room to sleep and then went back to Kendra's. I think I got a half an hour of sleep all night. We stayed up and ate cake and watched movies, the greatest time ever!!!
Sunday - New Years Day 06:
At 8am Kory and I walked down and woke up the boys to come eat breakfast with us. Kory had to go into work and after Lindsey went home we all came to my house and had a huge snowball fight. Then Laura and Lauren left. Kendra, Molly, Jason, Oddis, Colby and I went sledding at peck hill. Omg, it was a blast! I've never laughed so hard! We got soaking wet and then Kendra's dad took us to Bregguers, where kory works. We had hot chocolate and waited for Kory and Kelly to get out of work. Then we all got into some dry clothes, and Kory and Jason took Kelly and Molly home. I had to leave to go to my second christmas before they got back, but that's ok. Before I left Kendra Oddis Colby and I hung out on the couch, it was fun. And that wrapped up the best new years ever!!!
It was missing a few things and people for me, but it was still really fun!!!!
Current Mood:  happy
Current Music: Something Better
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